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It's irrelevant to some I get that, and that's why I don't want this to be an obituary biography thing.
I just want you and I to cherish life and realize the depth of cliches that claim "you never know what you have until it's gone" (and things related). I couldn't sleep last night. All I could think of was what Lea Michele (his longtime lady) must have been feeling and how terribly her tears must hurt. It's worse for the ones left behind, the ones past can't feel anymore. Gone, just like that. Poof! How could this have happened so abruptly? How could one be so near and dear and not know the battles being fought inside. Makes me wonder of the people I see on a daily basis. The laughing couple right next door, the guy in line for coffee, my own best friend...how do they feel today. Are they as happy as they seem to be? Is anyone? It made me want to hug everyone I know and care about, and tell them of faith and the stars. Tell them how much they mean to me...and tell them not to ever ever hide their hurt. Life is TOO short, too precious to wait. For a second I wanted to feel what she felt, what his mom felt, what his friends felt....but then I didn't. I pray I never have to. I just want to make sense of the universe and life and what it all really means. Everything happens for a reason, I know. I know it so much it makes me sick. But I still don't get it. What reason?!
But I guess some things are better left misunderstood. I guess maybe we don't have the capacity to understand and accept. To understand life to the fullest. To figure out God's intent. My friends have once lost loved ones, and I wondered last night how on earth they coped. How does one recover from loss...
I want the world to be happy, once. I want broken hearts everywhere to find comfort and love again, one day. I just want dreams to come true and lives to be lived before it's too late.
That's all. And that may have been an excruciating cliche, sap festival...but I'm glad. I want to say what I want to say and feel what I want to feel. You can do the same, you know? Just don't let the moment pass you by.